THIS is the key insight to attaining nibbana
In 2014 I was betrayed by someone I loved in a fashion that completely broke me. The way that I maintained my sanity was by writing. I was not fully aware of what I was doing at the time. Apparently, “writing therapy” is a “thing”. Just like all of what we call “art” is a result of this same torturous process of seeking to find meaning in pain.
However, in retrospect, it is now clear to me what my unconscious mind was compelling me to do. What I wrote became an incantation. I memorized it. I trained myself to invoke it whenever pain arose again. I was training myself to replace weakness with strength. I was training myself to change my attitude to and relationship with pain.
Why? Because I knew, at the time, intellectually, that allowing pain to turn into suffering was a horrifyingly bad habit. I knew at the time that the biological purpose of pain is to provide feedback to the sensory-motor brain. Specifically, to provide feedback that it’s predictive model of the world was incorrect and must be investigated until the error is found and corrected.
It is one thing to know this important truth *intellectually*.
Training the mind to put this truth into practice by actually changing my relationship with pain was far more challenging.
In retrospect, I now believe that this rewiring is at the very heart of the “heroic struggle” path to enlightenment of Maitreya Buddha. The heroic struggle is the turning towards the dragon of pain and striving to find the treasure of truth.
6 years later I attained the ability to get to nibbana – the total end of suffering. In retrospect, I am convinced that creating this incantation and anchoring it to the arising of pain so that I automatically recited the incantation whenever pain arose was an essential prerequisite to attaining the ability to get to nibbana and to become genuinely unbreakably fearless.